This is blue girl. A painting that I did in High School. My second favorite painting. The only thing I don't like about it is that I copied it from something I saw... So it wasn't right out of my mind... I cant take complete credit for it, and sadly I cant give credit either because I cant find the little picture that gave me the idea...

So other than just being a high school painting blue girl has a story. 

I gave her away one time as a gift. I gave my girl to my sister who never got around to hanging her up, and  then she got a boxer puppy who was slobbering all over blue girl, so I took blue girl back (sorry sis).

Well blue girl got shoved in a spare room where she along with all my other paintings just sat on the floor. 

Then I had a baby and blue girl and all my other creations were slid under couches and closets.

Then after having another baby and moving into a new home blue girl made her way back to sitting on my bedroom floor for six months.

Artist are emotional things.  I consider my self both and artist and emotional. The rest of the story gets a little embarrassing but here we go.

So a few weeks ago blue girl and another unfinished work were sitting on my bedroom floor taking up space and I felt being wasted. So I got this bad attitude. I was almost  (okay not almost) angry. 

What is the point of creating art that you just drag around and sit on the floor?

This is what I feel to be an identifying characteristic of who I am. A person who loves to paint and create and I have strung blue girl around for over 10 years. Not one time hanging her blue face on a wall.

So I had an out of character moment and I demolished blue girl...... :-( and now I miss her.

So I have made a promise to myself, who because of my angry action demolished my beloved creation that I would make a place in my home to create and keep my creations or a at least find a place to give them to.

I will find the time to create.  I read somewhere that everyone is gifted we just have to get the nerve to share our gifts.

I like that and I believe that.

We all have different loves and talents given to us from God.

What a shame to waste them.

I will begin to create again to honor God who has given me the desire to create. For myself because I think art is good, for my husband because well when I am happier in life so is he, and for my children because I desperately want them to use the desires and talents the Lord gives to them and how can I expect them to live that way if I am not willing to do so myself?

 

I will not destroy grey girl :-)