Luke 10:21
At that same time Jesus was filled with the joy of the Holy Spirit, and he said, " Oh Father, Lord of Heaven and earth, thank you for hiding these things from those who think themselves wise and clever, and for revealing them to the childlike. Yes, Father, it pleased you to do it this way.
For almost two years now I have been seeking God. Mostly because I finally realized that my plans were not, and would not work for me.
As a matter of fact apart from God I really stink at planning. I have finally excepted that God didn't put me here for my plans but for his plans.
How ironic that something that I have always viewed as one of my weak points is perhaps not.
If I was an awesome planner I would not be asking God about his plans and what he wants me to do.
I challenge you to look at your own weakness and consider how God my be using this "weakness" to mould you for his purpose.
Although I have excepted this fact, of being a poor planner I have to be frequently reminded of this fact.
In this life we are told over and over again to follow our dreams... which I don't disagree with dream following as long as we are seeking Gods purpose in our dreams.
So in my pursuit of seeking God over these months I consistently feel like I cant seek enough. My carnal mind wants to have the answer. To be finished seeking.
I'm so glad this verse popped out of my Bible today.
It reminds me that maybe I'm not supposed to get all wise and become a know it all. If I got to a point of feeling like I knew it all, what would I seek?
I'm not God. God doesn't ask me to have all the answers. That's why I look to him.
We are supposed to find rest in God.
Psalm 91:1
Those who live in the shelter of the Most High will find rest in the shadow of the Almighty.
Through all this constant feeling of seeking and never getting enough of God, always looking for more I am reminded to find rest in him.
Will I ever have all the answers?
No.
I'm not God.
I don't want to be God.
I want my God to be God and I want to find rest in him.
So I will continue to seek God. To grow my relationship with him.
I wont however let it stress me out. Like I'm running a crazy race. I don't think God intended it that way.
I am thankful to God that I still feel childlike and that in his time he reveals himself to me.
All I have to be is willing.
